Portrait of a Woman Fighting Cancer
That’s me,
the woman who was dry-eyed
and stunned but took a year off from writing—
not to go to Europe or on a cruise,
but to kick cancer in the face
before it could shoot me
by slinging lively cells.
My fight: to alter circumstances.
Sighing, I handed over my car keys.
For months and months, I lived awash,
eating small, watching flat gray skies
reeking of weariness.
Finally, my eyes landed on a web
with sticky strands, criss-crossed
between two posts on the porch.
The wind had blown a hole
in the weaver’s work
but left lattice behind.
Superb art,
perhaps enough for a new life’s design.
I nodded toward the blue mountain,
turned,
burst back inside the house—
I wanted my lipstick.
That’s me,
the woman who was dry-eyed
and stunned but took a year off from writing—
not to go to Europe or on a cruise,
but to kick cancer in the face
before it could shoot me
by slinging lively cells.
My fight: to alter circumstances.
Sighing, I handed over my car keys.
For months and months, I lived awash,
eating small, watching flat gray skies
reeking of weariness.
Finally, my eyes landed on a web
with sticky strands, criss-crossed
between two posts on the porch.
The wind had blown a hole
in the weaver’s work
but left lattice behind.
Superb art,
perhaps enough for a new life’s design.
I nodded toward the blue mountain,
turned,
burst back inside the house—
I wanted my lipstick.